{"id":75,"date":"2003-09-15T08:39:14","date_gmt":"2003-09-14T20:39:14","guid":{"rendered":"\/?p=75"},"modified":"2003-09-15T08:39:14","modified_gmt":"2003-09-14T20:39:14","slug":"inside-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/archives\/75","title":{"rendered":"Inside me"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Last night i dreamt that i became a bear. It happened all of a sudden. My friends (my family didn&#8217;t feature in the dream) still recognised me, and tried to deal with the change as best they could. At first i could still talk roughly, and communicate by writing. My talking became increasingly hard for them to understand, and i quickly became too clumsy to write legibly. My friends didn&#8217;t seem to be making much effort to understand me. I wanted desperately to be a man again. Everyone lost patience with me (I remember Mrs Steenhof was more compassionate than most), and i slunk away into the bush to live a normal unhappy bear-life. <\/p>\n<p>There was more, but i can&#8217;t recall it. I woke feeling lonely and disconsolate. It has been quite a few months since i read or thought about Kafka&#8217;s <a href=\"http:\/\/www.randomhouse.com\/crown\/metamorphosis\/\">Metamorphosis<\/a>, but the connexion is unmistakeable. <\/p>\n<p>I went to sleep again and dreamt twice more. One featured a wee baby boy (mine) and a church service with elaborate and beautiful music coordinated by Ben Hoyt. The other got kinda dirty. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Last night i dreamt that i became a bear. It happened all of a sudden. My friends (my family didn&#8217;t feature in the dream) still recognised me, and tried to deal with the change as best they could. At first i could still talk roughly, and communicate by writing. My talking became increasingly hard for [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-75","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-general"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=75"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/75\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=75"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=75"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/mhjb.co.nz\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=75"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}